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[daniel_marlow]

Rach, honey, can I ask you a kind of serious question?

It's not bad and you shouldn't be worried and I love you very much, I just need to ask you something. Well no, okay, I need to talk something out.

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[daniel_marlow]

Oh, Rach. That settles it. Come be with me during the day. I can give you money for the tube if you need it! And if you stay all day, maybe you can take the morning ones when you get here and the night ones when you leave?

I can go outside in my fancy wheelchair, but I'm not allowed to wheel it myself in case my chest bursts open when I do it. But it means we won't be stuck inside my room all day and maybe we can go to the cafe and have lunches or coffees and be obscenely cute and old people will comment on what a sweet couple we are like they do. I'll get you all sugared up and you'll forget the pain in your arm and I'll forget the pain in my chest and we can just sit and watch movies for hours.

Your heart is my favourite. It's one of the reasons mine is still beating.

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Your gonna make me cry like a stupid girl.

[daniel_marlow]

Then cry, Rachel. It's not stupid. Nothing you feel is stupid. It's real and it's yours and no one can take it away.

I thought Greg had taken me away, you know? But here I am, still me, just maybe a little sadder. Still ridiculous and ridiculously in love with you.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

I'm ridiculously and ridiculously in love with you too even though I feel so sad rn.

[daniel_marlow]

What's making you sad? Just more of the same?

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

Just more of the same :(

[daniel_marlow]

I'll do what I can. Will you come tomorrow morning?

Have you asked about maybe staying with Zoe? I mean, I know Indigo isn't a problem now, but it's a big place and Wolf is going to be staying there too.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

Ooh Wolf! Idk, I dont know what'll happen to my dad if I leave him. He's not dealing with the breakup so well I think. But i'll definitely come tomorrow morning.

[daniel_marlow]

Ah, I see. Okay, I'll see you then! I can't wait.

Do you know what I realised I have never actually seen in person? Boobs. I mean besides the time I walked in on Melissa in the bathroom which is the only time she ever shoved me, btw and it was only to get me out.

Er, I am not saying hey bring yours tomorrow and get 'em out. I was just thinking about it.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

Wow.

[daniel_marlow]

...what?

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

Your amazing.

[daniel_marlow]

I...am? Because I'm like...incredibly innocent in a lot of ways?

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

So many reasons. I kind of want to wear something really pretty tomorrow but getting dressed is really hard rn.

[daniel_marlow]

Yeah, you could wear like...a schlumpy bathrobe and I would still think you were the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. I mean it. I really- Every time I see you it's just like...whoa. She's with me? Whoa.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

Aahhaa I dont want to be walking round my building in a bathroom, you need more armour than that round here.

I cant get over you either, how beautiful you are in a man way.

[daniel_marlow]

...okay, fuck. I don't like that. I worry about you.

I guess I kind of never thought of myself that way and for a long time the idea that someone else might find me attractive was horrifying. But I like that you do. Makes me feel all warm inside.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

Oh, well, I think i'll be fine, haven't made any enemies! Theres a super angry indian woman down the hall who thinks I am to loud but i can handle her.

You are the most beautiful <3 <3 <3

[daniel_marlow]

I suppose that's good to know. If anything happens you'll call someone who can help you, right? I wish I could but I'm stuck. Call Zoe or Cai?

I think you are, but thank you. I mean it.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

Yeah ill call one of them, but theyve got classes and stuff. Its alright, i think everyone heres got their own problems that keep them occupied anyway.

[daniel_marlow]

You know they would drop everything if you needed them. They dropped everything when I did. I hope you're right though, and it's unnecessary.

I am so happy you'll be here tomorrow. You know you don't have to show me your boobs, right?

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

I know i don't have too...

[daniel_marlow]

As long as you don't think I'm expecting it just because I rambled at you!

All I care about is getting to be with you.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

It might be a bit of a mission to get out of my bra and get it back on again afterward anyway... besides is your heart allowed to speed up that fast??

[daniel_marlow]

That's true!

Oh my god, Rachel. I think that's the best thing anyone has asked me in a long time. My heart always speeds up when I'm around you. And yes, it's okay. As long as I don't do speed first.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

You are the sweetest boyfriend NO DRUGS just me :)

[daniel_marlow]

You're all I'll ever need anyway.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

Aside from meds, obvs.

Me and meds.

[daniel_marlow]

Aw man, that was supposed to be romantic as hell! You're right though. You and meds.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

~*~*~The winning combination.~*~*~

[daniel_marlow]

God I love you.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

I wish I was with you right now. I'm going to be there first thing in the morning, what time will they let me in??

[daniel_marlow]

I do too, stupid goddamn visiting hours. I just want to feel you in my arms.

9am is the earliest but I reckon you could get away with 8:45 because you're gorgeous and my morning nurse thinks I am 'cute as a button' and she keeps bringing me extra pudding.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

8:30 it is then! (I am a rebel.)

[daniel_marlow]

The cutest rebel!