Filtered away from Val

[daniel_marlow]

Have to have more surgery tomorrow morning. Good thing is it means I don't have to struggle through eating my dinner because I'm not allowed anything anyway. Bad thing is what the surgery's for. And you know...where. I watched my mum's face as they explained it to her and it was shit. Just shit and I don't want it.

But it's been a month and I haven't developed HIV though, so...got that goin' for me.

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[deirdre-rose.insanejournal.com]

Is it your heart again?

[daniel_marlow]

It's really not.

You don't need me to spell it out for you, right? Because I can but I don't really want to.

[deirdre-rose.insanejournal.com]

Oh. No, I got it.

And actually... Feel like a little company? We can commiserate.

[daniel_marlow]

Oh god. That's the most depressing commiseration ever, Deirdre.

But yeah, company's good. I feel really shitty.

So you had to have this kind of surgery too?

[deirdre-rose.insanejournal.com]

Not quite. I might have had to, but- Yeah. In person. I'll tell you in person.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

Is it gonna be really bad?

[daniel_marlow]

No, honey. It won't be really bad.

They did want to wait until my heart was stronger, but they're worried about infection and so they're doing it now. I guess they figured the risk of infection is worse than surgery with a weak heart which I guess makes me feel like I'll be okay. I'll live through it, it's just not so nice. That's what Mum was upset about; what caused it.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

I cant even...

[daniel_marlow]

Don't worry too much, okay? Please? I'm going to be fine. And hopefully it means more pain meds, hey? Those are always kind of nice.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

Haha ha. that reminds me i was going to take mine.

some idiot left them in my bedroom though.

[daniel_marlow]

Okay? Where are you? Who left them in your room?

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

Me. Im on the couch but i have a laptop and blanket on me. but its fine it doesn't hurt that bad.

[daniel_marlow]

Rach. If it hurts you'll go get them, right? I worry about you so much.

[runrachelrun.insanejournal.com]

UUUGHH i don't want to get up.

[lightningseed.insanejournal.com]

Rachel take your pain pills.

Danny, want us there when you wake up?

[daniel_marlow]

That'd be nice. I'll do the thing from Wizard of Oz where I'll tell you I had a dream and you and you and you were there.

I reckon I should eat something when I wake up too. Maybe soup?

[itsajesusthing.insanejournal.com]

You going to be out for long, do they reckon?

[daniel_marlow]

I don't think so. A few hours at most, so not like last time. It's just the most fucking embarrassing thing.

[itsajesusthing.insanejournal.com]

Yeah? Do you... d'you wanna say?

[daniel_marlow]

It's just fixing up Greg's mess because he wasn't goddamn careful

[itsajesusthing.insanejournal.com]

Well... shit. Okay, but it sounds like they think your heart can take it so that's a good sign, right?

[daniel_marlow]

They wouldn't be doing it if they didn't think so. They had to reassure my mother several times. And I mean, when they were doing the heart surgery apparently I died like 4 times and came through it okay afterwards. So I'm sure it'll be fine. Don't know if it'll be tricky if I'm on my front though.

And not real pleased I'll be unconscious while a bunch of people fucking touch me.

[itsajesusthing.insanejournal.com]

You're some kind of living miracle, Danny.

[daniel_marlow]

I...am? Why?

[itsajesusthing.insanejournal.com]

Just... it would have killed a lot of other people I think, but you're clearly mean to be still around. I just think it's incredible.