A hell of a lot better than I thought I'd be doing. Still shaky and horrified by the things he said, especially the parts I wish you guys didn't know. I didn't tell you that shit for a reason. I hadn't actually told anyone that, not the police and not the lawyers and not the therapists or Dr Abby. It makes me uncomfortable knowing you guys have that knowledge, you know? Like...you can picture that. You all can picture me like that, disgusting and pitiful and broken and I hate that. I never wanted anyone to know I'd gotten that bad. But I guess...in the end, I just have to trust that you guys won't take advantage of it.
Uh...so there was what. See, I'm getting better at saying this shit! Really though...I'm coping. I wish you guys didn't know, but I'm not completely crushed by the fact that you do, and I'm really fucking proud of myself for that.
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Date: 2014-10-18 12:50 pm (UTC)Uh...so there was what. See, I'm getting better at saying this shit! Really though...I'm coping. I wish you guys didn't know, but I'm not completely crushed by the fact that you do, and I'm really fucking proud of myself for that.