Cai...thank you. Thank you so much for being honest with me. I'm sorry I made you upset too, because even if you don't get to say what's fair, your feelings are still valid.
I just need to get my head on straight because I can't go back to that place.
No. No it's more...I can't promise what will happen if I go back to that place. If I end up being locked down that's going to bring up all kinds of shit and I can't promise I won't try to die again. Just the thought of it is nearly enough for a panic attack. Which...I guess is kind of helpful because I'm sure as well going to weigh-ins and therapy and stuff now.
I kind of wish I could see Nonnie. I mean...not now, I mean when visitors can come back again. It would be really rude of me to tell you not to come, but hey can I borrow your grandma?
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Date: 2014-10-10 10:31 am (UTC)I just need to get my head on straight because I can't go back to that place.
No. No it's more...I can't promise what will happen if I go back to that place. If I end up being locked down that's going to bring up all kinds of shit and I can't promise I won't try to die again. Just the thought of it is nearly enough for a panic attack. Which...I guess is kind of helpful because I'm sure as well going to weigh-ins and therapy and stuff now.
I kind of wish I could see Nonnie. I mean...not now, I mean when visitors can come back again. It would be really rude of me to tell you not to come, but hey can I borrow your grandma?