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daniel_marlowUh. So this might sound really fucked up, and my mother is going to freak out and try to stop me, but I think I have a day pass coming up soon and I kind of want to go visit Greg.
Not- Not to see him. I don't ever really want to see him again, but I think closure might be easier if I see the place he's being kept? I have some things I want to say too. And if I have to go testify at his trial, I really don't want the first time I see him again to be then. I might not be able to do it and then the trial's kind of fucked, right?
I can't go alone though, and I hate having to ask you guys because I honestly don't think anyone should ever have to see someone like him, but if I go alone I'll crumble. And I might crumble anyway. Honestly though, if you can't handle it, I completely understand. I can ask Gabe or Deirdre to come with me. I would never expect any of you to do this for me if you can't. I just had to ask.
I'm doing this. Don't know when, but I'm doing it. God, my Mum's going to kill me.
Not- Not to see him. I don't ever really want to see him again, but I think closure might be easier if I see the place he's being kept? I have some things I want to say too. And if I have to go testify at his trial, I really don't want the first time I see him again to be then. I might not be able to do it and then the trial's kind of fucked, right?
I can't go alone though, and I hate having to ask you guys because I honestly don't think anyone should ever have to see someone like him, but if I go alone I'll crumble. And I might crumble anyway. Honestly though, if you can't handle it, I completely understand. I can ask Gabe or Deirdre to come with me. I would never expect any of you to do this for me if you can't. I just had to ask.
I'm doing this. Don't know when, but I'm doing it. God, my Mum's going to kill me.
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Date: 2014-10-04 10:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-10-04 10:43 am (UTC)Are you sure you're okay with seeing him? He might say some fucked up shit.
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Date: 2014-10-04 10:46 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-10-04 10:49 am (UTC)I think he'll try to hurt me. Verbally, I mean. No way I'm going to be in the same room with him. I texted Zoe's uncle Peter and he said they have rooms with glass windows or something so I don't have to risk him touching me. I couldn't do that.
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Date: 2014-10-04 10:51 am (UTC)I think going with someone you just met is a bad idea, and I don't think Deirdre will be very helpful either.
Talk to Abby about it first, okay? Don't be reckless, and put yourself in a worse position.
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Date: 2014-10-04 11:01 am (UTC)I don't want it to be them, but in a pinch-
I did and she's not thrilled but she doesn't think I'm being reckless.
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Date: 2014-10-04 11:28 am (UTC)I have you guys though.
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Date: 2014-10-04 11:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-10-04 11:33 am (UTC)This has to be from around when we were at Dad's together. My hair, hah!
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Date: 2014-10-04 11:54 am (UTC)But then I forgot they were all on here and when I was looking through my photos to make a collage (art therapy strikes again) I found the old folders!
We look thrilled.
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Date: 2014-10-04 11:57 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-10-04 12:03 pm (UTC)Poor Melissa already sick of dealing with me shouting about how I was a bird, a plane, no SUPERMAN.
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Date: 2014-10-04 12:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-10-04 12:12 pm (UTC)Is this Dom's hat? Also why do you look like you want to kill me?
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Date: 2014-10-04 12:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-10-04 12:19 pm (UTC)OR.
You're about to make that face at me again because I found some photos from after we stopped going to see Dad. Pretty sure either Nonnie either sent them to me, or she sent them to Ross and I stole them when I was archiving his photo albums too (I visited him all of twice after Melissa died and he made moves to try to be part of my life, no surprise it lasted less than a month)
You're amazing. Don't kill me. Impeccable, remember?
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Date: 2014-10-04 12:22 pm (UTC)Ooh no.
Yeah Nonnie wouldn't have sent them to Ross because she doesn't even waste her breath on his name, so she probably sent them to you. I'm going to have words with her. This is an outrage.
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Date: 2014-10-04 12:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-10-04 12:25 pm (UTC)She's the BEST.
To make it fair though, here. I took this photo OF MYSELF:
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Date: 2014-10-04 12:27 pm (UTC)So I'd best share all of these while I can. Look at our hair!
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Date: 2014-10-04 12:36 pm (UTC)Me hating sunlight.
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Date: 2014-10-04 12:37 pm (UTC)If you do have them around though, people can do this.
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Date: 2014-10-04 12:42 pm (UTC)So...I love you?
Look at his waves of hair?
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Date: 2014-10-04 12:46 pm (UTC)This is when I decided to try longer hair. No. Nope. No.
Also I don't know why I am grabbing my nips.
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Date: 2014-10-04 12:46 pm (UTC)I suppose I can ask Liz and see if there's photos of me from when I first got here. Because I'm generous and giving.
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Date: 2014-10-04 12:50 pm (UTC)Only if you want to! I have thoroughly distracted myself from the upsetting subject matter of this post, and I find that pleasing.
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