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daniel_marlow) wrote2014-09-18 12:49 am
daniel_marlow) wrote2014-09-18 12:49 am
Filtered to Zoe and Cai
It's so late at night and I can't sleep because I'm worried about Rachel AND I keep thinking-
I could have killed Greg. I could have strangled the life out of him with the damn chain he used to keep me on his bed and I didn't because I was terrified I might starve to death if he wasn't there to bring me food.
But now that I know I was rescued and I wouldn't have starved for long, I wish I had killed him. I'm kind of consumed by the anger that I didn't. Does wishing I murdered someone make me a bad person? I don't want to be a bad person.
I could have killed Greg. I could have strangled the life out of him with the damn chain he used to keep me on his bed and I didn't because I was terrified I might starve to death if he wasn't there to bring me food.
But now that I know I was rescued and I wouldn't have starved for long, I wish I had killed him. I'm kind of consumed by the anger that I didn't. Does wishing I murdered someone make me a bad person? I don't want to be a bad person.