No dude! You're fine! I just don't know what to tell you I haven't told myself a million times in my head. I dunno what's going to happen, in the future, with regard to, uh me and stuff.
I guess I have to have faith that it will work out how it's supposed to work out, in the end.
Sorry, I tend to think I pissed people off. Pretty sure I upset Zoe, and I don't even know how. And then there was a bit of a shame spiral. Guess I'm kind of still in it.
I wish I could do that. Sometimes I wish I grew up having faith in something because I don't and it's not the greatest. Still- I'm sorry this psychic thing has so many drawbacks.
Oooh I think I upset Zoe too, guess I'll find out. Are you heading over to Rachels in a bit? She said you might. (Rach, not Zoe. Zoe just said things like What and Fine and Grr.)
Drawbacks, yeah, but it gives me the chance to make a real, profound difference to people. So... maybe I don't get to have sex right now but Rach feels comfortable asking me for help for something that freaks her out so... balances out, kinda.
Oh shit. No, pretty sure that was my fault. Shit. But yeah, I'll be there. And uhm...if you see red on my arms it's just ink. Thought that might be less...something.
Wow, yeah. I wish I could help her more. Thank you so much for doing that.
I don't even know. I was talking about my worry for Rachel and she got weird and then I told her I loved her and she just stopped talking to me. Maybe she doesn't even really like me, she just puts up with me for Rachel's sake? Maybe I should stop talking to her? Oh god, I just shouldn't ever tell people how I feel about them ever. She probably feels guilty because she thinks I'm an idiot and doesn't know what to say.
It's really ink, I promise. I felt like shit, but I figured anything else would make it worse, so I used a pen. I'm okay. Well I mean, I'm sure Zoe hates me now, but I didn't hurt myself.
I know, but I'm still thankful you're willing to do it. Especially since seeing things makes you so sick.
I don't think she doesn't like you, I think, when Zoe doesn't like someone, she makes it very clear. She likes you, I think she's just... got some issues about liking people.
I don't know. She could have protected me during the prank for Rachel's sake. Maybe I'll leave her alone for awhile. I don't want to bother her. I don't want to bother anyone.
Maybe leaving her alone wouldn't hurt, but, whatever's going on with her, probably not your fault. I figure maybe you don't know that - that it's not your fault - but if she's really upset, it probably means there's more going on that just one interaction between you guys.
Exam stress is huge and you guys both have a lot of stuff going on in your own heads and your own lives. Don't forget that, okay?
Augh, I was asking you if you wanted to talk to me, and you are being so selfless and looking out for other people, and then I turn the conversation until it's about myself. I am such a shitty human being. Wouldn't blame her if she does hate me.
I'm sorry. I should just cut myself off from humans while important things like exams are happening.
Dude, it's okay. It's just a conversation, it's allowed to be about you part of the time! You're not turning it round maliciously, I know that. Nothing you're doing is shitty, or worth hating.
I'd be so torn up if you cut yourself off from people. Exam'll be over so soon. We'll be better after that. Don't make any hasty decisions. Let's just try roll with it a little longer.
I wasn't thinking that right now. I've been worried about it before, but right now I was talking about how I didn't want you to lock yourself away from people, I like hanging out with you.
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I guess I have to have faith that it will work out how it's supposed to work out, in the end.
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I wish I could do that. Sometimes I wish I grew up having faith in something because I don't and it's not the greatest. Still- I'm sorry this psychic thing has so many drawbacks.
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Drawbacks, yeah, but it gives me the chance to make a real, profound difference to people. So... maybe I don't get to have sex right now but Rach feels comfortable asking me for help for something that freaks her out so... balances out, kinda.
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Wow, yeah. I wish I could help her more. Thank you so much for doing that.
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(You sure it's ink you're okay right?)
Dude it's okay, she's my friend too.
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It's really ink, I promise. I felt like shit, but I figured anything else would make it worse, so I used a pen. I'm okay. Well I mean, I'm sure Zoe hates me now, but I didn't hurt myself.
I know, but I'm still thankful you're willing to do it. Especially since seeing things makes you so sick.
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Glad you didn't hurt yourself, Danny.
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Okay.
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Exam stress is huge and you guys both have a lot of stuff going on in your own heads and your own lives. Don't forget that, okay?
Jesus CHRIST, Danny.
I'm sorry. I should just cut myself off from humans while important things like exams are happening.
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I'd be so torn up if you cut yourself off from people. Exam'll be over so soon. We'll be better after that. Don't make any hasty decisions. Let's just try roll with it a little longer.
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So...why would you be torn up?
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Because, you've my bro. I want you in the world.
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I like hanging out with you too.
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When's your last one? Mines in 8 days.
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Mine's on the 26th. I have one on the 25th too though, which is brutal.
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