I don't even know. I was talking about my worry for Rachel and she got weird and then I told her I loved her and she just stopped talking to me. Maybe she doesn't even really like me, she just puts up with me for Rachel's sake? Maybe I should stop talking to her? Oh god, I just shouldn't ever tell people how I feel about them ever. She probably feels guilty because she thinks I'm an idiot and doesn't know what to say.

It's really ink, I promise. I felt like shit, but I figured anything else would make it worse, so I used a pen. I'm okay. Well I mean, I'm sure Zoe hates me now, but I didn't hurt myself.

I know, but I'm still thankful you're willing to do it. Especially since seeing things makes you so sick.