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daniel_marlow ([personal profile] daniel_marlow) wrote2014-09-15 07:14 pm
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Filtered away from Val - Edited just to Zoe, Cai and Rachel

Why can't I smoke some medicinal marijuana? Or eat the stuff they make into candy floss. This is bullshit.
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[identity profile] lightningseed.insanejournal.com 2014-09-15 12:19 pm (UTC)(link)
It's not still happening, you're out, you're Free Danny, remember? Captive Danny is gone.
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[personal profile] daniel_marlow 2014-09-15 01:21 pm (UTC)(link)
I know it's not still happening for real, but the pain is still happening, and the torture did happen and I can't change that. I'm going to have to live the rest of my life knowing what it feels like to be tortured and that's fucked up. And it's new because when I was younger all he needed were threats and I didn't fight at all. This time I fought and that's what it got me. And sometimes I wonder if I shouldn't have just given in sooner because once I finally did that it hurt less. And logically I know that fighting was good, but...god.

Captive Danny's gone sure, but Tortured Danny's still there, kinda lurking and freaking out every time someone I don't know tries to reach for my hand, or any time I even look at a shower (don't worry, I am still taking them because Tortured Danny is better than Tortured and Smelly Danny).

Maybe I shouldn't talk about this here but- It's helping? So. Yay? I mean it's helping me, but if you need me to shut up, I can.

[identity profile] lightningseed.insanejournal.com 2014-09-16 10:32 am (UTC)(link)
I'm all for Clean Danny as opposed to Smelly Danny.

Talking Danny is okay too. Listening Zoe is pleased it is helping.
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[personal profile] daniel_marlow 2014-09-16 10:34 am (UTC)(link)
I thought so! I just play loud music while I shower so any panic attacks are kind of waylaid by some smooth jazz. Or some smooth The Fray.

No, it's- It's okay. I'll talk to Abby like I'm supposed to.

[identity profile] lightningseed.insanejournal.com 2014-09-16 10:42 am (UTC)(link)
Okay, cool. Good for music, and Abby.

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[identity profile] lightningseed.insanejournal.com 2014-09-16 11:10 am (UTC)(link)
I"ll see you tomorrow after classes, okay?
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[personal profile] daniel_marlow 2014-09-16 11:13 am (UTC)(link)
Yes please! Bring pictures of Wolf! I'm going to draw you something before you get here too. Just because.

[identity profile] lightningseed.insanejournal.com 2014-09-16 11:20 am (UTC)(link)
Nice! Hang on, he's on Hope's bed at the moment (traitor!) I'll snap you a couple of snaps before bed.
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[personal profile] daniel_marlow 2014-09-16 11:27 am (UTC)(link)
Yay yay thank you yay!
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